Rajasthan Royals batter Riyan Parag on his India call-up, the 2024 IPL, and how he transformed himself

Your mother says you’ve become ruthless in saying “no” when it comes to food.
Yeah, I don’t mind being rude about this. Recently I was at an event and they were trying to offer me food. I told them, “No, thanks, I can’t eat this.” I think not giving in to those temptations makes you strong minded. A slice of pizza is not going to hurt me because I just went to the gym this morning and I cycled for like 10km, but then I’m not going to give in. Those are “private victories”. That’s what one of the UFC fighters I follow, Conor McGregor, says. If you can have those private victories when no one knows what’s going on, like refusing half a slice of pizza, even though you know you can burn it off easily… Now I get that self-assurance and self-confidence that, okay, I can control myself. Food is a very small thing to give up.

You said during this IPL that this clarity has come with maturity.
Maturity comes with pain. There are millions watching the IPL. When I don’t perform, I feel terrible. And people add to it. Opinions from fans add to it. Opinions from great players add to it. So I just had to figure out what really mattered. Once I did, I think it turned out well. Me not performing, me feeling sad, me being left out of the team, me being abused by people, me coming back to my house knowing my dad and mom were expecting something, even though they don’t say it – I think that was pain. I really didn’t tell anyone. And I think that’s how you mature.

It’s not about the age. It’s that pain. And only after going through all this, I realised, “Okay, I can’t suffer through this.” I am going out there to perform.

Everyone has high expectations, but I have had to figure out what expectations work for me. The last year has been about working through all of this.

You’ve copped a lot of online trolling. Over your performances, celebrations, tweets. How did you deal with it?
After last year, I decided to shut it out. There was a whole stand in certain stadiums that kept abusing me. That’s when I understood that you can’t really change someone’s opinion, no matter what you do. And how I look at life is not how someone else is going to look at it. If I see something that’s going on with a person but if I don’t know what they’re going through, I don’t really share my opinion on it. But that’s not how everyone sees it. Social media nowadays, even if you try to avoid it, you can’t, to be honest. Because if you open Instagram, you’ll just see something like that. You can just scroll [past] it, but there will be a thousand other posts. So you can’t really not see it. So I was just like, I might as well not open Instagram because I don’t need it.

It couldn’t have been easy?
It’s not easy. But then again, after last year, I had a chat with myself. And this sort of a comeback is personal because I had to put up with stuff I didn’t really deserve. Maybe I’ve lacked in preparation, maybe I’ve lacked in a few things, but then I’ve always put my best foot forward. I thought I didn’t deserve all the trolling, but what could I do? People are going to say things regardless. Last year they said I wasn’t good enough to play in the IPL. Now they want me in the Indian team. So people change, just like a switch.

On the field, you seem very intense now. You smile a lot less, your celebrations are muted. Is that a deliberate attempt to tone things down?
Earlier I wanted to be my absolute true self. That’s how I portrayed myself. But because I got so many negative responses from that, because I was not performing… I understood that, okay, I don’t have to do that. As the years have gone by, I’ve refrained a bit. Now I’m just so into my game and into what’s happening on that given day. I can’t really express myself even if I want to. I don’t look back to the crowds even if they are all rooting for me. I’m looking at the bowler, the captain, I’m looking to think about what I would do if I was captain. The way I view a game is different now.

Kumar Sangakkara spoke very highly of your routines and mindset during the IPL. How has your relationship with him evolved – you’ve now worked together for four seasons?
Communication is key. A lot of players get shy [of speaking to coaches]. Sanga made it very clear from the first year that he was very easy to approach and I took that. I always went to him, spoke about cricket, spoke about life, spoke about golf and a lot of things. It’s been really great working with him in the last three-four years. He’s very open to suggestions. He is very keen on how you’re developing your game even beyond the IPL, for the ten months where no one’s watching you. He’s still checking on you, on what you’re doing, how you’re playing. It’s been great working with him. He’s a legend, but then he’s a great human being too.

The shift from a finisher to No. 4 – tell us about that.
Personally, I always felt I was not doing justice to the Nos. 6-7 spots. But I also had to move on quickly and not keep giving excuses, even though people around me made me believe it’s a tough position since you don’t get too many balls to play. All of which was true. But if I kept living under that umbrella of excuses, I wouldn’t further my game. If someone plays three years in the same spot, he’s got to figure it out, and I couldn’t. I have no one else to blame but myself. I could have done more, and I did not. I got to know just after the Syed Mushtaq Ali Trophy that I’d bat at four in the IPL. I was batting there for Assam, so I had a fair idea of how to go about it, whether it’s 0 for 2 or 100 for 2. So yeah, No. 4 was very easy to accept, but then going out there and implementing it and getting results out of it – that’s the difference.

Getting the spot you love must have also brought some pressure with it?
Whatever I’ve done in my career till now, it’s down to confidence and mental strength. I’m not the best, technically. My last domestic season was superb. I got runs in Deodhar Trophy, topped charts in Syed Mushtaq Ali. I was having a good Ranji season and then I got injured in the fourth game, two months before the IPL. I didn’t even touch a bat for a month. But the fact that I was able to go into the IPL with confidence is because of the preparation and the confidence of runs.

I think we’ve gotten really close in the last six years. Sanju bhaiyya is one of the best batters currently. I also believe his wicketkeeping goes unnoticed. On the field you can learn a lot from him – the way he handles himself even when he’s angry, the way he handles himself after we’ve lost the game, all that is really commendable. That’s how we get confidence from the captain, because you don’t want a captain who’s just shouting and showing his emotions. He keeps his emotions to himself, speaks to everyone normally after we’ve won or lost a game. I think those are the things that make him a really great captain.

Who do you discuss cricket with?
I’ve always discussed cricket with my dad. I don’t discuss cricket with anyone else. I’ve just had one [constant] coach since the beginning. I’ve had coaches at different stints, but Dad knows my game better than anyone else in this world. So every game, every practice session, what I’ve done, what am I doing wrong, what am I doing right, all of those things are all thrashed out at the dining table in a constructive way.

Are you able to sometimes get away from this cycle of train-play-train routine?
Yes, absolutely. I love gaming. I am in the top 5000 rankings in Southeast Asia for Counter-Strike. I’ve always wanted to be something outside of cricket, and that’s how I found gaming, back in 2018-19. When I’m home I don’t even pick up books, don’t text anyone. I just don’t do anything. I go to the gym in the morning, come back, rest, practise, and once that’s done, there’s no one who can get me out of my chair. I just game, game, game and then go back to sleep and do the same thing the next day. I’m pretty good at it and that’s why I can’t game when I’m outside, because my set-up is here. I miss it a lot when I’m out on tour but when I’m home, the love is just unreal for gaming. I’ve now started playing the PubG PC version.

Looking ahead, how does it feel to be recognised as a bit of a path-breaker from Assam?
Growing up, I always felt people from our region limit themselves from dreaming big. I’d like to change that. I’m not there [an international player] yet. I want to play for the country. Once I do, then people know they can have a pathway, a road map from one of their very own who got there. Now I’ve played in the IPL and there’s realisation from the people that even if you’re from a small state like Assam, you can get to that level. But the thing is, the IPL can’t be that big a goal. You can play for one year and fade away. But when I play for the country, when I make it to the country, I think that’s when the actual road map will be set. They don’t have to really follow it. They can have their own versions of it.

Shashank Kishore is a senior sub-editor at ESPNcricinfo